Here goes nothing...choosing anti-anxiety medication for my Autistic 9yr old son

Gulp! We are finally taking that big leap. I guess typing the word finally, we knew all along it would get to this point, but now to wait and see what will come from it? Will there be side-effects? good or bad? Will one of these be the brain numbing that I felt when I was on the drug? Will he lose his appetite? something that is already non-existent. Will my little skinny guy lose even more weight? ahh! so many uncertainties and worries, maybe I need the anxiety medication just to stop me from worrying so much about this..!! But I have to keep telling myself that there could be the good outcomes we want to, like less worry that controls every choice he makes! Worry about the what ifs, the worry about totally irrational situations that i can not find rhyme or reason in let alone provide any logical solution to. Oh is this going to be the big break we both need from this life controlling anxiety, worry and fear! Fingers are crossed for both our sanities!!
Yes we have made the choice to put Harry on Anxiety medication. His little life was being totally controlled by it, the progress that we were hoping for from taking "natural" paths only showed us more, why he needed to be on it!
Last night before bed we started him on 1.5ml of Celexa twice a day. I gave his next dose this morning with breakfast, which was met with huge opposition as he thought it would make him to tired for school. He eventually drank it and straight away complained of being tired. Ah what am I to think? however he went to school so now I just have to wait and see what happens? maybe I should not of told him about the drugs?  I chose to so that he could see if it made a difference with him too? I needed to know what he was feeling and if started feeling different in good or bad ways, although he is a little hypochondriac so I really don't know what he is going to come up with. maybe I should not of told him? oh crap!!
Will keep posting here with updates of changes and document the progress!
Putting our son on med's has not been an easy choice, in fact it has been a constant option that we have fought with a united NO! But after years and years of seeking the alternative to med's, like behavioral therapies, psychologists, soothing techniques and diets. We have not seen any change in the heightened level of anxiety!

Doing Disney World with an Autistic child, a mental mom, a totally inflexible dad and a brother who has sensory issues...whoo hoo!

It's one of those moments, when the reaction you give is not the one you ever expected to, when its all you can do to dig deep, put on your fake smile and gushy happiness and say... "Disney World...whoo hoo!" combined with a happy dance that any normal mom would do.My response really was more of a..."Oh Shit!" with thoughts instantly asking... is alcohol even allowed in the parks? and who will need the drugs more, me or the kids? With what I believe to be a look of sheer horror on my face! That sums up my reaction to going on a fun-o'le-family trip. What am I to think when presented with this opportunity, have you met my family? With my mind already doing circles of the what if's and thinking about escape routes in the park, not to mention the huge crowds and the waiting in lines...ahh and all the people (ok shoot me know!), I started hyperventilating, I took a deep breath and let it sink in...Agh!
In all honesty what a great opportunity, I know it will come with its challenges, but it will also provide those unforgettable family moments too...you know the one of a mom trying to console a screaming child who is flailing around on the ground like he is being murdered! Oh yes I have images of that happening in front of Cinderellas castle, or after waiting in line for hours to go on a ride...ahh what a treat! Wish me luck!
I'll post our trip soon, the preparations I made, what worked and didn't work bla bla bla. Stay tuned!!


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